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Why never update blog?


I'm trying to be good girl okay. My mama say if I study hard she'll buy me a sweet as reward. My papa promised to bring me to the zoo if I finish my homework. So obviously, I'm cracking my head studying and completing the homeworks. Duh?


*staring at the monitor, thinks hard..


If anyone actually does believe the above statement, I strongly suggest you to bang yourself and pay Tanjung Rambutan a visit. Imagine me transforming into a nerdy. We'll wait, someday. Let's see, what exactly I was up to? The ideal job. All time favourite.

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Apparently, I'm incredibly slacking and busy because of DRAMA! The little me, becoming more and MORE restless and 101% extended LAZY, sticking my ass to the chair in front of the computer non-stop playing videos and munching on junk foods. Tell me, how can I NOT grow fatter. Wth. About my sleeping disorder, I slept at 2am most of the nights and wake up at 12noon. 10 hours sleep. Healthy lifestyle I bet huh? Lol. Back to topic, not to forget good deeds of the day. I bathed my bag and pencil case. Lol. And piled up my new notes plus re-writing the damn sucky notes into my new pretty notebook. See! Hardworking eh? Hee.


Btw, I had miserable time doing calculations for Media Planning. You see, I HATE seeing numbers in my syllabus, and yet they are appearing to SCARE me. Wtf. I'm definitely one maths failure. I used to FAIL addmaths from beginning till the end. Yes, and often runaway or rather dig a hole to hide from Pn Goh. This time, I had to fill my entire time figuring the stupidest calculations ever. It was ALL due to lateness. Pig over slept, dashed to the classroom 30 minutes later, alas sat there more like a dungu not knowing a single shit what the tutor was crapping in front. BLUR to the maximum punya maximum. I feel like fucking everyone else, because I feel like fucking myself too. My life span probably decreased by 10 years because of MATHS!


Thursday, a plain ordinary and usual day except the part where I went out during evening. It was practically raining cats and dogs but he insisted on fetching me out. Frankly speaking, I've got no urge and that kinda mood to go out. But sigh, I wasn't willing to let him down despite he'll be real disappointed. Reluctantly, I agreed.


We grabbed some light meal at Gloria Jeans cafe since we were earlier by 1 hour before the movie starts. Combination of an Expresso and a slice of cheese cake will do a great work. My dinner. =) Please remind DO NOT remind me of Fattening. I beg you. =(



I wanted to watch Incredible Hulk. Hulk the big guy. But then, he refused to. Ahhh! Sort of annoying to argue over this matter so we ended up watching Get Smart - a dumbo show with dumbo actions and dumbo jokes. Agent 86, a pretty idiotic and clumsy fella, with his utterly stupid and lame acts. You'll automatically laugh no matter how moody you're I suppose.




I thought I'd gotten over it. I inhaled deeply, then exhaled. 'It's okay, give it a try.' I proclaimed. I glanced aside, acting naturally. Pretended I was so steady. The more I tried to hide the truth, the more nervous I got. I hesitated. I warned myself not to disguise but I can't. Everything seems falling apart. Holding my breath, suppressing my fear, whipping my slippery palms, I jumped slightly. I wasn't feeling comfortable at all. I just forced myself to - choking myself to death. I realized finally, the answer would be a big NO. It's just an act of desperation. Sorry, I wasn't ready. I will NOT BE. It was bad enough to ruin things. Guilt was mounting in me so badly. One tiny word swept across me - fuck. Shiet. What was I thinking? I'm totally carried away by this. I know the one damn thing I should be doing right now but I just DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT.

Ignore. Just ignore. Ignore lar.

I saw him again at canteen foyer yesterday. I grinned spontaneously. His studious look impressed me much and his affectionate smile, stunningly grab hold of me. Sigh. Maybe I was a bit exaggerating but he's the one unique species I found so far. I wonder, would I have the chance to know him further? My wild imaginations are appearing in no time, bringing sign of no goodness. He's cute, at least to me. =)