And it cut me like a knife.

Yesterday had been an awful long day! Class from 8am to 6pm goodness. CRAZY TIRED! Having to climb up and down hill.. walked a distance to attend classes. Kanasai seriously.

I'm starting to feel the WEIGHT. Fatness as well. My passion for assignments is growing stronger wtf. Everything seems starting and ending soooo super fast, most of the assignments we have now gonna due in approximately.. 2 WEEKS TIME? Owh my fark gawt.

What makes me worry most would be DRAMA! Imagine me acting as bitchy woman. I think I gotta dress semi translucent during the role play? Since it shows me BATHING and SINGING in the scene AND suppose to SEDUCE the actor fyi. Wtf man. I officially declare myself a B.I.T.C.H and am gonna be as bitchy as possible woooOhoooO. Mind me. I have Marketing research and presentation next week, corporate identity to deal with, MME campaign to evaluate and LAW problems to analyze. *bang head cries*

KILL ME PLEASE I FEEL SO ALIVE

Misery. Despair. Stress.

No entertainments for me for the time being BUT I WANNA GO CLUBBING LAH!.
ASSIGNMENTS SPREEEEEEEEEEEE no fuck.

Boo I hate this life. Here are some delayed pictures on the 19th this month. Hee. =)

Italiannies, Gardens.

Promoting the breads.

Promoting Italiannies.

Promoting their sky juice.

Promoting SE phone.

Promoting their faces.

Why do they like to promote so many stuffs? =p

My =( face.
Fav expression for the time being. -__-

Hearts <3
Love it but why our positions damn random in this pic -__-

Fed up with the practical session. Drove to college just to do nothing in lab. Fish ass.
Currently done reading 2 freaking literature novels, MME and LAW notes. *pat head*

Class tomorrow how pathetic. Yes I have class on a SATURDAY! Replacement one though.

AHHH 31ST TODAY I WANT BR ! T__________________T
please please pelissssssssssssssssssss half a gallon anyone? So depress. =(

ps : Happie Halloweeeeeeeeeeen ^_^

I may have failed but I've loved you from the start.

Tadaaaaa ! I just woke up now at 3pm.

But was interrupted by few phone calls and messages earlier so didn't sleep like pig. Sigh you know I'm a busy woman plenty of multi million dollar business waiting for me to handle. *blushed* A friend called informing the cancellation of both classes today AM SO HAPPY. Talked on the phone awhile and slept again. Feeling guilty for sleeping too much, here am I doing assignments blogging now.

Went Subang last night, dropped by at Time Square wanted to buy those dresses on sale but the bf comment this and that. END UP NEVER BUY SO SAD LA. This morning which I dunno what time was awaken by the bf. People so sleepy he so annoying. But but.. dunno why he EXTRA KIND today brought me out for breakfast at Puchong. Hmm I sensed weirdness.

Ignore him. Lol. Yuen dim sum. =)




Breakfast was indeed satisfying. =) Uhhh. Did I tell you I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dim sum? I don't mind eating them every week. Ahem. *hint hint*

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Something is bugging me lately but I can't really tell what is that specifically. A type of feelings which kills me, really, really does. You may see me being on top of the world now - having every bits in my life that I desired but I'm still left confused aside. I want to be honest that I still have doubts. Highly doubts on this decision of ours. I can't seem to find back the trust; the confidence. I still feel soppy whenever I think about it.

I can sit down wondering what in world you're thinking about..
but I don't think I'm ever going to figure it out..

I have this negative side of mine which think negatively very often. I won't express my feelings in front of others. I mean, not to say won't; reluctant perhaps which I dunno why. I have this very very bad attitude of not speaking out most of the time. I tend to keep everything to myself. Old habits can never die can't they?

Things really have changed.
I can't tell how much I've grown. I can sort of see that my perspective on certain things have changed, but I'm not sure if that classifies as 'growth'. What if my way of thinking just went a step backward? I like telling myself that I have grown, it makes me feel a little more matured.

It feels.. different. A whole new chapter. I find it hard to accept when people around started telling me all sort of hurtful comments. This friend was so true. He knew perfectly the feelings. He just knew it. That is why I somehow grew closer to him apart from the political issues going on in college. I mind their words, but most of all I mind every single word of yours. Probably because I'm still haunted by the past so much that eventually makes me feel insecure. The fear of losing it again overwhelms me. I honestly feel as if a part of me is missing. I'm moving on with everything because that's the way it should be right?

But sometimes.. I just can't help but to feel empty; to feel that missing piece.
I don't really know what I want anymore. I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting inside that it's eating me up. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I ran away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding it's way back towards me. The tears in your eyes, sometimes makes me wish that I was never brought into this place, never have known you 5 years back.

Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.
Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am.. isn't me.

我不喜欢你因为我爱你。

Because I had a bad day.

Today has been possibly cursed I guessed.

Woke up late. Bathed, grabbed my breakfast ready on the table and ran out from the house. Apparently I thought I will be only 5 minutes late to class.

It turned out to be 30 MINUTES LATE! Why? Fuck the carparks. I couldn't find ANY EMPTY PARKING LOTS after turning round college for like 25 minutes? Wtf. I even saw my cousin with a girl in the car while I was on the way. Pfft.

Another great thing. I almost knock on another car. Thanks to some idiot drivers who didn't obey the traffic. DUNNO HOW TO SEE ARROW ONE WAY IZIT?!?! DIU. I braked so hard I think my heart stop beating that minute. Madness.

I WAS SO FUCKING FRUS that I finally gave up and drove out from college compound to the UTAR side. From there, I ran up hill all the way to V block and fucking climbed up to 2nd floor. Dashed into the class, hardly catch my breathe and sweating profusely. Bad enough? No.

Settled down, trying to focus on the damn law. Nearly faint after marathon with empty stomach. While eating my bread, felt a little uncomfortable as my eye sight getting blur on my right. So I tried to rub. And then I still feel weird. Asked my friend beside to check whether my eyes were okay or red.

EH YOUR RIGHT LENS NOT THERE!!!

NOT THERE?!

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF???

Okay I started panic. And that Mr Julius kept mumbling thousands of explanation I couldn't jot down any. MY LENS WENT ABOVE/INSIDE MY EYES! It didn't went missing cos I can actually feel it, stuck somewhere inside. It took me good old 15 minutes to save it out AND I FELT I ALMOST DIED AGAIN.

Problem solved? NOT YET. Where to put my lens? I was holding the lens.. soaking it with some WATER from my water bottle. What can I possibly do when there's no solution and container with me? Don't care laaaaa just put water as long as it don't dry. Sucks.

Halfway class beh tahan the lens already harden so ran down to toilet trying to fix it into my eye again. IT WON'T GO IN! God damn it. It still didn't go in, but my eye was all red and tearing.

Went back to class continue soaking it in my bottle cap this time. Damn frustrating okay. Conclusion is, I didn't even listen to any explanations given. HELL HOW CAN I CONCENTRATE IN SUCH TRAGIC SITUATIONS? Other subjects I can still cope. BUT THIS IS LAW.

LAW!

Life can be shitty sometimes.

The least I was expecting today that someone is back from vacation to comfort me, but the chances now are like slimmest ever. You know how much I miss you! Saddest day.

MACIP In the house.

GENTING again.

Friday night, family and I went Gohtong Jaya for dinner. Daddy got complimentary room for his birthday so went Genting and stay over for fun. We even got free Dreamz passes for 4.. so yeah. If you're wondering what's that - some sort of magic show, performances, singing dancing, comedian acts etc. Quite an interesting show overall, took us almost 2 hours.

Dad wanted to go in casino to redeem some vouchers after that, mum suddenly suggested why don't I follow him in? I gave her that.. @_@ expression.

Mi, I underage ahh! =(

Upon reaching casino, I hesitated awhile. SHOULD I POK TO GO IN THERE? Mum was like encouraging me wtf. Dad gave me that.. you-dare-or not look. Coincidently, there was a bunch of foreigners going in at the same time. Dad just walked in, while I followed behind. Managed to slip through the first 2 guards, which I dunno how.

When I thought OMFG I AM SAFE HAHAHA, there were another TWO SUPER BIG SIZE GUARDS checking on people's ic right after the alarm detector thingy. I was like.. fuck man sure die. LUCKILY they were so busy checking on those foreigner's passports that they forgot to look at me! YAY TO ME! *claps claps jump jump*

Weee. I was so excited in there jumping around my dad. Lol. Sorry lar really damn chi geik okay, keep on OMG to my dad. I think I somehow got in because I was clinging to his hand, like I am his mistress. Seriously. And another thing, I was wearing sexy enough to be a prostitute according to him. Practically all the uncles inside were staring at me and my dad. He said he paiseh to have a young mistress like me. -______-

Back to casino. THE CHANDELIER IN THERE DAMN CUNTED LOR! Gahhh. Too bad no pictures allowed if not I would have snap shot abit. The environment in there.. crowded with kaki judi obviously. Then my dad recommend their free teh tarik. Hahaha. Very nice, nicer than those in mamak. He brought me to tour around since the ENTIRE casino in Genting is link once you're in there. Fui damn cun experience. I likey.

Went mamak for supper. Then dad went casino, mum and sis went sleep while I went Coffee Bean to finish up my notes. Coldddddddddddddddddd.

Maaf I abit vain take all these pictures. Abit too bored lar!

Next morning, get up at 7am just for the buffet. Apparently, I barely have appetite with my sepet eyes but when I literally saw those yummy yummy displaying.. OMG. Lol semangat giler go take food. I even stole those packets of honey back to room.





After breakfast? SLEEP! Yeah went back room and poof slept till noon. Waited for my friends longest ever cos my parents left earlier. When they finally reached, what we did was eat, eat and more eat. Gosh. Ohh we went for flying coaster before that. RM12 for not even more than 3 minutes? Burn kau my money but dei, it was fun tho. Lol.

EH. I forgot something. I did tried to go into casino again.
But this time, the guards STRAIGHT AWAY blocked me from entering.

Guard : Amoi comel, umur berapa??
Me : *blushed *smiled
Dad : Sudah lepas 21 ma.. isteri la..
Guard : Aiyo uncle.. tengok saje tau ini anak you la.. *laughing
Me : *LOL IN THE HEART wtf.
Guard : Lain kali pakai makeup sikit tu..
Me : *Smiled, walked out.

This is so embarrassing. T__________________T

Ahhh I LIKE THIS PICTURE! CAN SEE MY EYES COLOR! Xddd

Attempt to be spoiler but tak jadi?

And then..

*COUGH* notice the height *COUGH*

Ann : Aww why you so short ar chiongy?
Lin : Sobs because I'm itik..
Lol no offense don't kill me please.

Hoho I'm above 153. *wink*

Well well. Ask me what's our motive being up here in Genting? Hmm see below.

Fui my hair. =/

Hmmm notice anything yet? NO?

MISS ASTRO BEAUTY PAGEANT 2008! =)

Ask again WHAT it got to do with us?

BEcause Li Naa is our ex-schoolmate, someone's petsis
and simply because we got free tickets. Lol.
AND OF COURSE WE ARE CBNERS!

Kelly the winner.






LiNaa and Lyn.

Her bf. =)

The event ended nearly 12am, headed to opposite Old Town to makan. Chatted all the way till around 3am and left the place. Fyi, we had got NO ROOM to stay that night. We didn't intend to book any room due to financial constrain. Therefore, we sat by First World Hotel corridor and continued talking. Zzz. Until past 5am, went to nearby garden to wait for sun rise konon. Many many random stuffs happened and topics discussed throughout the night, which I shall not disclose any here. =)

12am..

4am..




6am..

7am..

Finally. We survived through the night, all in half dead condition. The stomach was making all the fuss which somehow dragged everyone into worse condition. Anyhow, we still had McD for breakfast and.. watched High School Musical later. Crazy huh? Semangat setiahaiwan..

Fell asleep before the movie started and fell asleep again at the beginning of the movie. Imagine 24 hours no sleep, with the contact lens on and stomachache all the while.. seriously like shit. The show was only nice towards the ending part. Lol. ZAC EFRON AND VANESSA HUDGENS DAMN HAWT OMG! Their nice bodies.. omgggggggggg. Sigh.

Reached home almost tea time.

SLEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
Slept like nobody business.