Too late to fight it ends tonight.

I'm very disappointed and sad now.

After 3 days 3 nights of hard work, we didn't get an A. I mean, I was expecting an A- at least but she.. sigh. No doubt I felt relief that ALL ASSIGNMENTS ARE CLEARED FINALLY but I'm not happy at all. Seriously, I almost cried when we were presenting halfway due to time constrain. I really did my very best. Really.

Sigh it's over.

It's all over. Semester 5 officially ended today on the 31st of December 2008.

I drove the girls, my bro drove the guys. -__-

Hmm remember my law assignment? No I didn't fail. In fact, we got the highest coursework for law in the entire course! And I passed my midterm with flying colours! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA why am I so clever! =)

So.

Here comes that time of the year again when everyone starts reflecting how the past year has been for them. See how much change a single year can bring.

I really don't know what this year had been for me. 2008 has been the saddest year to begin with that I will never forget eternally, then I had the happiest moments with this bunch of friends, I beginning to love my college life and enjoyed every bid of it no matter how stressful it is, then I took the courage to step into relationship again and let myself.. flung away once more. End up the history repeats itself in 2009.

How cool isn't it.

Lately, many of them said I've not been smiling like how sampat I used to be. I thought maybe I've changed emotionally. I.. don't feel myself anymore.

I'm freaking tired and exhausted actually. My eye bags are so so so horrible. I don't know why I've been wanting to vomit and fainting all the time. And my stomach cramps like fucking shit every morning which makes me wanna die.

Uhh if my dad sees this I will be dead on the spot.

Ohh I fucking hate motorcycles! Idiots.

Yay yay yippie yay yay I'm driving out tonight weeeee! I will see you soon 2009! =)




Oops.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN CHUAH! <3
Legal clubber wei no more sneaking IC.. =p

Now or never.

8 more hours to the BIG BIG DAY I'm not gonna sleep. Am dying seriously.

This will be my BESTEST presentation ever in my life I swear. No A? Kill me.

Quit playing games with my heart.

Didn't eat the whole day and I had tom yam soup for dinner just now.

HAILAT.

Stomachache like fuck and I still gotta stay awake for the blardy analysis tonight!

... angel brought me here?

I
know
I've
been
missing
you
so
much
deep
down
but it's all one sided in return.

When I see you standing there. I stop. And it feels as if the world stops with me.

Raindrops keep falling off my eyes.

Daddy went Kuantan this morning with the Johanian's folks.
Mummy went over to aunt's house for sisters reunion.
Sis at ah poh's house with the Damansara gang.

WHICH LEFT ME HOME ALONE DOING BLOODY HEWLETT PACKARD REPORT WTF
DAMN UNFAIR OKAY I WANNA GO SHOPPING AT THE CURVE WTF

But it's okay.

NEVERMIND.

In fact I feel so.. cool.

THE CAR IS ALL MINE FOR 3 DAYS MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

You know I know what does that gotta means. =)

Cameron pictures soon very soon I promise. Done with this toopid assignment I'm so gonna fly out asap!
Home alone is miserable. Le sigh am missing PSP now. Sad.

There's a hole in my soul that's been killing me forever
It's a place where a garden never grows

Everybody's talking in word I don't understand.

Happy Christmas everyone.

Sorry I'm just to lazy to reply those greeting smses. Too many! Really am so sorry. Plus my phone credits currently bleeding keep bleeding darn sucks.

Darn cute santa baby.

Baked scones.

Midvalley again. 4th time in 2 weeks.

Home sweet home. It feels like I've been away from my beloved bed for some time already. Slept less than 6 hours for the past two days. FEELS LIKE ZOMBIE.

ps : Thank YOU for helping me a big big favor seriously. So guilty for that.

Lately I found out that my cousin's daughter attempted to runaway from home but failed - she ended up falling to dead from the balcony. Yeah it's on newspaper if you ever came across that news. Imagine a 10 years old girl telling her friend she wants to die. She had really bad childhood memories from the previous dad, and whenever the parents fought she became the victim, being threatened by knife and abused. All because of arguments.

The seriousness of depression has always been something dark for what I've experienced. Ever since this case, what usually happens in drama series became so surreal, it shook me entirely. The little girl is really really pretty and sweet really. Anyone could have fall in love with her big eyes and innocent face. Why her?

Seeing your own family member being torn apart like that. Imagine yourself a mum, you woke up one sunny morning when the police knock on your door and tell you your daughter jump down from the building last night. How could one possibly bare with such tragedy?

Life is so fragile.




I'm willing to do anything to save this but why. Why is this the ending of the beginning again.
Why do I have to go through hell AGAIN for all the tears I've shed. WHY.

Everytime I don't see you, I forget how much I love you until the next time I see you again.
I fell, I stood up; I don't think I will be able to stand up straight all over again after this.

Much loves.

Jingle bell jingle all the way.

Who says Christmas is the happiest time of the year? HA-HA.

Every breath you take.

Libra

This week's chart aims at making you more aware of the possibilities that are all around you.. This tends to happen when you are getting too caught up and trapped by the ruts and routines of life. Your state of mind is clear on facts and info but not on emotions and relationships. Your loyalty is thoroughly put to the test this week but not to worry because you definitely are one. Minor accidents may occur if you don't concentrate. You are very close to the fire. Be careful, therefore, not to burn your finger.

.. fate, you or me?

If I were a boy I wish I could understand.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

Been isolating myself.


According to my aunt, the more we sweat the more happy hormons are being released so we'll feel happier after sweating. That's NOT TRUE of it. I jog, walk, run, badminton, swim, ping pong and gym yet, I don't feel HAPPY at all. It only burned up my entire energy.

But you're just a boy
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
YOU DON'T CARE HOW IT HURTS
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Tell me what is going to happen.
HurtisallIcanfeelnow.