In time of test family is the best.

So. I was drunk in Cloud 9 last night.

After cups and cups of uncountable Toddy and Sherry, someone guided me into the toilet and throw up. I thought I fainted next to the toilet bowl, few minutes later KK dashed into the female toilet and carried me out.

Then he had to run all over Genting to buy me mineral water and panadol at 4am. And stayed up the whole night taking care of me till this morning before sending me to meet up with my fellow mates for assignment.

It wasn't pathetic. I wanted to prove myself that I can get over things.. But KK stopped me from consuming more liquors and.. ended the conversation for me.

Despite what happened yesterday morning, we didn't continue doing what we were supposed to do. Instead, we went for this.

FIS SPA.

Before I could get ready, my so KIND leader grabbed both my legs and dunk them to the fish. The only option left was to scream the hell out of you and pinch whoever sitting beside you.

I swear it was so ticklish I almost tears.

You'll literally stop screaming the next minute once you get used to the geli-ness.

You'll start to enjoy them in fact.

And start camwhoring..

Everyone say I look like a KID now they cannot stop pinching my chubby face.
Don't ask me why I'm darker, sunburn-ed from cycling the other day.

Yesterday night when my dad wanted to disturb JunJun, she shouted at him. (in canto)

Jun : I don't like you lah!
Dad : WHY? *giving her the biggest O_O look
Jun : BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS PINCH ME HMPH! *angry face

-__-

Everyone else burst out laughing. Imagine a 4 years old kid saying this to a 50 years old old man! No doubt, my dad ALWAYS pinch her no matter where she go what she do. =/

The only person she's afraid of would be my aunt Sherryl.

My aunt forbid her from eating any sweets or chocolate or snacks because she doesn't like to brush her teeth - all spoilt. So aunty told her if she continue eating somemore, all the worms will eat up her teeth. So she dare not say NO. Each time she eat those things, she would look around if Sherryl is there. And if you just simply mention "HOR SHERRYL COMING JOR" she'll quickly stuff everything into her mouth or hide them somewhere. Once she even asked my mum to help her 'keep' her sweet in my mum's pocket. -_- But when my dad eating those, she would stand in front of him innocently, waiting for him to kesian her and she knows she surely gets to eat. Well she's extra friend with my parents compared to other uncle/aunty cos my mum and dad pamper her so much!

So yesterday she saw me eating the whole bar of chocolate, she came to me.

Jun : Eu jin jie jie.. ngo oi sek.. *so so so polite and innocent
Me : MM DAK!
Jun : dit dit jek.. please lah.. *trying to act as cham as possible with the I-am-so-sad-face
Me : MM DAK! *threaten to shout for my aunt fiercely

She stared at the CHOCOLATE with the longest and saddest face ever and then ran to my dad complaining about this evil daughter.

" Sah pek! (means 3rd uncle) Eu jin jie jie mm pei ngo sek! =( " *forcing her tears out

MY DAD GAVE HER THE WHOLE BAR! THE WHOLE BAR! Pfft -___-

See how everyone spoil her.

TELL ME HOW CAN SHE NOT BE THE SPOTLIGHT IN THE HOUSE.

You just can't resist her cuteness sometimes most of the time.
I think I'm as cute as her. ~_~

*** Sorry guys for not attending the Malaysia ITS & Admin gathering. Just got to know the surprise birthday celebration thingy for me. Especially Aaron. So sorry I couldn't make it.

Another hectic week coming. Le sigh.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I just saw something I shouldn't be seeing. So I just cried.

When you made up your mind for that one second, that's it.

Everything changed from that second onwards.

No turning back.












I'm so sicked of my old fringe so decided to chop them off. My friends couldn't recognise me at first sight? I thought I look like a doll but 99% of them said I look so much cuter and sweeter with this. I guess I shall take that as compliment. Cute pictures tomorrow.

Something happened today which really pissed me off like bloody fuck. Since they fucking rude being racist towards us, fucking lokap us, I fucking quarreled with them.

SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE POWER SO WHAT IF YOUR ARE MALAYS YOU ARE JUST A PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT OKAY.

SO WHAT IF YOU ARE THE MANAGER OF THE MALL SO YOU THINK YOU ARE FUCKING BIG? YEAH RIGHT YOUR BALLS ARE BIG THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN FUCK!

You should really be ashamed quarreling with a 19 years old girl. Common fuck off okay. So what if I'm timid so what if I'm chinese you think I'm scared of you? I don't fucking need to give face to idiots. Why should I be polite when you treat me such a way.

Enough said.

I'm going Genting for supper now. Cya.

When I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be.

I have my assignments open right next to me, but I don't feel like doing it. Yes. I am so much procrastinating here because I don't fucking know what to do. With the amount of work I have, I really shouldn't be blogging. It's suicidal. Yet, you just can't help it won't you?

I really like to tell my readers that I'm happy I AM SO SO SO HAPPY. But I really don't know. Don't know to the extend that I REALLY DON'T KNOW. Then again, maybe I needed something more than what can be given. And so, it becomes my fault doesn't it? My own bloody misery, simply because I gotten myself into the fight, I created it.

I haven't felt this lost and confused in awhile. It's like everything's spinning around me, I can't be thinking straight. I have to keep quiet so I don't snap. I have to endure those pain so I don't cry. I have to smile so people would think I'm cheerful. I have to constantly remind myself that I've grown up. No more a kid. I can't be relying on anyone. I must be independent.

Maybe that's why, I've been pushing myself too hard. Life becomes hard especially when you realize that at a time when you need a hand to hold most, that hand isn't available.

Do I want what I don't want? Or don't want what I want?

And I think I made the stupidest statement, going around telling people..
HAHAHA I DON'T HAVE MENSTRUAL PAIN BEFORE LAR HOW LUCKY!

I had the worst pain in my life of being a girl today. Its's really.. awful. Awfully pain that you feel like killing yourself on the spot, stabbing your stomach till it bleeds like waterfall so that you will have no more blood for period in your entire life!

It's so painful that it goes through the nerves, making you paralyze for a moment.
I wonder why am I even telling you this shit.

I'm still feeling so sick after medication; bed is my only option now.

It's gonna be a real busy weekend ahead. I don't mind busy days now, at least it can avoid me from feeling the loneliness and emptiness temporary; a way to lie and comfort myself away. I just need to breakaway. Like far far away, so that I can be all alone.

You know..
I'm so stressed; frustrated; moody; annoyed; angry; hurt; fed up; snappy; disappointed,
I could just cry out loud.

Tomorrow's a new day? Maybe; maybe not.
I'm off.

Hold your breath and count to ten..
Just because every other breath hurts.

Twinkle twinkle little star. How I wonder what you are.

This is theme song for Malaysia Musical Award 2008. =)
2008 娱协奖颁奖典礼大会主题曲 - STAR



Cast most of the local artistes of course. Daniel Lee, Rynn Lim, Danny Wen, Michael Wong, Fish Leong, Henley Shu, Diana, John Wong, Nick Chung and etc etc etc.

Loves.

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.

I think my mood somehow got a little better. I think.

I'm being a bitch lately; emo emo and more emo, being rebellious at home, not replying to smses and calls, behave sarcastically and whatever you can think of. Eventually, I made everyone hate me for those good old reasons.

I'm sorry. So so so sorry.

It makes me realize who true friends are.
I love the Animals because no matter what happens they're always there for me. Xoxo <3

After what happened these days, today is the one and only day I felt much relief. Class at 8am, I woke up at 8.30 and reached college at 9 if I'm not mistaken. Who cares. Then I had to rush all the way to replace tomorrow's class without having any break to eat, only to realize something isn't right about me. So.. that was it. I can finally put down the nightmare after days of depression. At least I'm a little happier now. And then it was literature session in library. Fell asleep for the whole hour where I'm supposed to study LAW? Sigh stomach was so painful till I literally sweating in an aircond room. Left library and ran off for midterm test.

40 MINUTES TO SETTLE A LAW CASE LIKE HOW CAN

Sigh overall I don't think I wrote enough facts to support my answer, plus most of it seems pointless and repetition. Ahhh who cares again! As long as it's over I don't give a damn.

SO MUCH MORE TO WORRY!

Btw, this was taken when we were at Kepong few days back to play for drama.


What was he drinking? Hmm.. *look at the TWO pathetic balloons o_o
This silly guy make me laugh like mad everyday with the lamest jokes wth -__-

This.. that we messed up the kitchen for. Someone even had his finger cut and then
blood started to sprint everywhere and eventually we thought of Happy Tree Friends. -_-

This was at Sunway Pyramid early this year for CNY shopping.

Memories.

See how time flies.

I actually plans on something for this person since I purposely called a day off tomorrow but it doesn't seems to make any difference. Time shall decide.

MARKETING OH MARKETING HERE I COME.

They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.

There isn't a need to clarify things further because practically everyone is writing the same, repeating what we have to say to be on the safe side I assumed. Honestly, I have so much to say but words just don't come out.

What is the use of defending yourself when you chose to let such a thing happened?
It's really too late. You just ended our journey with a full stop.

This is what we had, what we build, what we are.






















My tears are flowing for so many reasons. Words left unsaid, deeds left undone. The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.

..when something's over, it's over. it can never start again.
when it's broken you can never put back the pieces..

We are the reason.

I have no words to describe whatever shit that is happening between us.

I'm still avoiding the fact that it ruined, completely.

Please just tell me it's all a joke.

A heart worth breaking.

Empty promises. Commitments. Responsibilities. Irrationality.
Selfishness. Security. Understanding. Reassurance. Toleration.


Words can be mere lies.


There are times I wish none of this ever happened, that things would go back to how they used to be. I'm being pissed still over the whole incident for some particular reasons. Call me small gas or whatsoever, so what. Small little things do have its own value. Small little things do meant something. Small little things are still things. That doesn't mean it can be anything less important. That doesn't mean it can be cared less. That doesn't mean it can be neglected like that. At least, it meant something to me.

I really can't handle it when tension arises. It makes me realize how weak I am after all. I held on to the hope that things would work out. I held on to the hope that things would change.. for the better. I was told so;promises. But today, thoughts teared me apart while I drive. The more hope I place, the more disappointed I am bound to feel each day. I really shouldn't have any expectations, is that so? Yet, I'm bottling up with so many emotions.

Wrong signals. Wrong impressions. Wrong everything.

We're constantly being led on. We're constantly being deceived. We're constantly living under false illusions. We're constantly confused about every goddamn thing.

Sometimes you just can't help the way things end up.

Sometimes even doing the right thing fucks you up.

Caught this real HUGE spider crawling during today's practice.

I was living in denial for quite sometime
and that's how I landed myself in this whirlwind of emotions.
I've been having expectations for a lot of things, from a lot of people.
I knew it was a stupid thing to have done from the start.
Yet I held on to those expectations.

I tried not to burst for once. I couldn't.
Because things changed.
I knew it. I knew it a long time ago.
I just didn't want to believe it.


It took me awhile to realize how useless my attempts were.
It took me awhile to notice how much I was draining out of myself.
And end up with nothing more nothing lesser.
I've been hurting myself with hopes.

Expressions I needed to express.

Leave.Me.Alone.

Am I scaring you tonight?

One word to describe today would be TIRING!
My body and mind are way to dead to function right now.

Had the EARLIEST class at 8am today, nevermind. Gotta absorb MARKETING theories with the eyes barely opening and FREEZING LIKE ZOMBIE in the hall even with jacket on wtf. Later in law class, suffered for TWO solid hours cracking the brain, all kind of juices came flowing out. Sigh and based on what I learned TODAY, I might as well just fail my assignment.

Well oh well, to kinda celebrate that we finally hand in LAW assignment and happily fail with great honour, we went straight to The Curve after tutorial at 2pm.

AND FREAKING REACHED HOME AT THIS TIME!

As promised..

Mr. Alson, driver of the day.


Nothing beat girls at camwhoring in the toilet.

Anyway, too many pictures I can't be uploading ALL. So at first, we wanted to just dine there, chill and then go home. And before that, everyone warned themselves NO SINGING K since most of them are karaoke kaki. Who knows.. WHO KNOWS WE ENDED UP IN REDBOX THE CURVE. But it's only 8 BUCKS FOR 4 HOURS PLUS DAMN CHEAP OKAY.

EH EH EHHHHHHH THIS IS GAVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS GROUP!
How coincidence. I just noticed this picture. Gold hair leader. 3 cutie chipmunks. =)


The white tee couple.

Mi-che-le..

Hmm this is my biological brother. Most tutors thought we are siblings. =)
Ahh when he kena called to answer question, the next name would be me!

This is the gangster in class. FOREVER BULLYING ME! Hmph.
Also the spotlight in class cos his hair terlampau striking. LALA!

the flash..

They singing love song to him. =/

DAMN GAY! wth.

Hearts.

Dinner @ Marche Movenpick. A super nice place, super nice ambiance, super nice decorations, super nice concept, super nice foods not forgetting SUPER NICE PRICE!
Bye RM50.

Lamb chop!

Roasted chicken!

Mix grill!

Rosti!

2 gangsters 2 innocent girls.

Cute?

Cool?




Throw chewing gum at me wth. TOLD YOU HE FOREVER BULLYING ME!
He always take my sandals away and hide somewhere in class. Damn babi. -__-

Please don't ask me why I smile the same in every picture! I have no answer to that seriously. Signature pose cannot is it! Hmph. I had stomachache that night because both the guys made me laughed NON STOP the whole time! Nobody can beat them in talking craps.

WHY DO ASSIGNMENTS EVEN EXIST IN THIS WORLD!