On a history book page.

So close to ending it all; so near to the edge of a turning point.

I woke up feeling completely miserable today. When it all comes in at once, I don't exactly know how to deal with these overload anxieties. Of many sighs, here is another round of revelry gone wrong. The past is the past, the present is now and the future is unknown. It's a test, life is a fucking game we play everyday with nothing but a tiny glimmer of hope at times, and its all burning with such intensity now.

The only constant is change. And that I see better changes within myself this year. But I have this sudden lost of mind to who I am today. It's silly to say I don't know what I'm doing, but truly I don't know what this does to me in long run anymore. As I stared onto the white ceiling each night, loneliness creeps in. As I looked into the mirror every morning, fear shatters my little dream. As I walked down a crowded street alone, uncertainties start to pour heavily. I have great nightmares no one will understand.

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game".

I have 12 hours till the real game begins.

Now I'm feelin so fly like a G6.

I should be blogging more often these days but I'm really too tired; tired of shopping, tired of outings, tired of watching drama, tired of playing games, tired of bumming in the house etc etc. So far so good with my holidays except for the sick part fml. Ruined my schedules upside down.

Anyway I'm back healthy with 2kg of weight loss after extreme diarrhea and vomiting. :)




Studying for my final paper the other day. Bird nest for supper! :D



Recent love.



Ah Dum and Ah Ding whom I missed badly.



Tenji buffet with its unglamorous food!



Solaris with my poor hubby. :(



More drinking nights with the boys.



Adding to my recipes today was apple crumble cake. It was superb good! :D

Signing off. Partay.

The only exception.

Nothing can tug my heart the way home does. :)

But in time like this, I find my mind drifting to happier yet pathetic spaces, like my comfort zone to sleep in, boundless kitchen to experiment with and how I usually laze with the boys at every random corners, which is often followed by delightful offerings of mummy's home cooked food. I'm feeling very heart sick.

It's perfectly fine to be scared when all I could conceive at this swift moment, is that here comes a full stop to my entire studying phase that I've precisely been through for more than one and a half decade of my life. I think I just freaked out. Another emotional journey to end with tonight.

Heart flips up and down.

Bright and sunneh afternoon!


Honestly I really couldn't remember when was my last time waking up at this hour. It feels goddamn precious to sleep for 16 hours straight after so much of hassle this week. I was very depressed with school works, skipping meals and burning midnight oil most of the time. Which kinda worsen my health condition to the max. Also my mood was REALLY bad after screwing up a major presentation and literally not doing enough to achieve my goal. I'm disappointed once again.


But I'm glad this miserable thing is coming to an end finally. One final paper and that's it. Although big part of me doesn't want to leave or at least I'm not a bit prepared for this lifetime farewell but I seriously need a break. Can't wait for holidays! Back with all my loves. :)




Went for Skytrek extreme challenge some weeks ago with the boys, Esther and Evan.



Freaked out with the height oh my gawd. But it was way adventurous compared to big thrill! So much sweats and fun. :D



Sayang. ♥



Surprise belated 21st.



Bought this cardholder for Nelleisa Omar. I personally love it too!

Usual zombified lunch.



Sunday breakie at McDonalds.



Big day for BPC Advertising Campaign with Mr. Loo. We were the first group, and I was the first presenter of the class! With a videographer shooting right on your face. How nervous it can be. :(



With Mel Ng after hardcore presentation.



Partner in crime for online shopping yeehaa.



Our Indonesia gang. :D



Pretty and cheap stuff makes me a happy girl! ♥ ♥ ♥

Boosting my Saturday with more drama, tonic soup and the regular bonding dins at granny's! :)

I am in misery.

Loving the start of November!

Because all we did was L4D2 when we have 4 major assignments lining up this final week of our final semester wtfwtf. Trial presentation tomorrow am I dying now or what! I woke up as early as 8am today, made a pot of apple soup for the boys at home, cut a plate of fruits served with an American style breakfast. How impressive lah! I'm officially a kitchen person woosh. :D

Okay bye, turbo mode on.