I woke up feeling completely miserable today. When it all comes in at once, I don't exactly know how to deal with these overload anxieties. Of many sighs, here is another round of revelry gone wrong. The past is the past, the present is now and the future is unknown. It's a test, life is a fucking game we play everyday with nothing but a tiny glimmer of hope at times, and its all burning with such intensity now.
The only constant is change. And that I see better changes within myself this year. But I have this sudden lost of mind to who I am today. It's silly to say I don't know what I'm doing, but truly I don't know what this does to me in long run anymore. As I stared onto the white ceiling each night, loneliness creeps in. As I looked into the mirror every morning, fear shatters my little dream. As I walked down a crowded street alone, uncertainties start to pour heavily. I have great nightmares no one will understand.
"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game".
I have 12 hours till the real game begins.
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