IT'S ALL ABOUT US

Saturday, 29th March

My thailand cousin is back in action! That is why we are going on outings. =) This is the best time of the year to go where we want, do what we want, eat what we want coz everything will be FREEEEEEEEEEEEE! But due to time constrain this weekend, we only managed to go places within KL.

We went Cineleisure, The Curve. According to plan, we're actually suppose to go One Utama that morning but I dunno what happened there was a sudden change. Basically I'm just following. It's all about following.

First time see complex so empty eh? It doesn't look promising to me.

Their concept and lighting very nice.

After walking for awhile, we were kinda shocked to see this. We were just there by coincidence. Unexpected.

I didn't notice the banner until my cousin said something about it.

FT Island autograph session. Wth? Which mean I'll be seeing them live.

I actually wasn't aware about their existance. But because of the 2 songs. My aunt some more thought it was DBSK. =_=

Their promo flyer.

The place was so crowded with all the LALA girls and MALAY girls and all GIRLS! What is so great about being a big fans of them? They don't even know who the hell are you. It's better to sit down and eat! I'm loving it --> McD.

I think apparently, we ordered almost everything. My strawberry sundae =) Only McD our bill already RM100+. Isn't scary? Not even our main course yet. This is ONLY tea time. And finally they arrived after 4 hours of delayed.

The opening ceremony. The host sucks.

I'm way to far from them and our phones are not high-tech enough to zoom.

I was..being pushed by those sakai fellas. They even stepped on me without saying sorry. Fcuk lar!

Managed to take some of these tho.

I gotta say, they are really really good looking. Korean guys.. gosh!

This is the best shot I can take. I tried my best tho. The nearest I can get.

We then went over to Ikano to check out some stuffs. I like the bazaar street. As usual, my gang without considering complained hungry again. I gotta admit, we are such big eaters. We just ate McD like.. 2 hours ago? Cool. So my aunt suggested on drinking 'kopi'.

We headed to Kluang Station nearby.

Coffeeeeee and me..

They are famous for their toast bread I think? No idea. My first time =)

Whole group of us went into Pets Wonderland while the adults and few of them went to Popular bookstore. We were so noisy in there, talking and laughing loudly. Plus the few of us even shouted seeing the Tarantula spider. It was really huge and scary. The funny part was the man suddenly appeared next to us holding a snake which scare my cousin till he almost bang onto the wall.

The chihuahua so damn CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Omg.. see the heart shape birth mark on his body? Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww.. love it! <3

We spent our time in there fooling around and came out laughing like mad because of the stupid incident. At a glance, I saw something. Something that really caught my attention. Something I've been dreaming of. Something..

MY GRAND PIANO! I'm extremely obsessed that I can't resist to lay my hand on it. It sounded so perfect! Heaven ~

I'll have it someday. It's considered cheap tho. 30k only.

That night was a blast. We spent every cent that we have on FOOOOOOOOOOD! I can tell you it's really insane. We bought almost all the food at pasar malam and headed back to eat by the pool side. It was superb great! This is what we called, eat all you can. We eat and talk the whole night. Maybe because we rarely meet nowadays, we got loads and loads to chat about. And one thing that we definitely do each time we meet, BLUETOOTH. Around midnight, we continued back with our unfinished drama till the next morning.

Tomorrow is a new day ~

Show me the light

Hi people. I'm back blogging after few days. It's been a really LONG weekend or I should just say, BORING WEEKEND! Well not really boring, but at certain times really bored then at certain while not really bored but overall kinda bored. OKAY I'm crapping.

Move on.

Last Friday. It was a BORING day! Went to MidValley with my so called 'baby' for outing. The reason I went out was because of the night outing which another group agreed on earlier but they.. FFK! Which resort me to a miserable state.

Hee. We went Sushi King for lunch.

Then then, we decided to watch horror movie which I don't feel like mentioning about it anymore. PATHETIC MOVIE! Ghost doesn't look like ghost. How can it be horror movie?! I don't even know what was the whole story about after sitting one hour plus in there. Hell. Right after movie, we went over Gardens for a walk.

Due to the plan cancellation, I've to travel all by myself down to Cheras. Stupid rain! What we did that night? Oh! We ended up sitting at granny house for no reason! Wth? I came all the way to meet them just to sit down and rot together?! It doesn't make any sense. =(

Despite of that, I headed back to my aunt house for drama instead. I thought I can finally sit back and relax drama-ing but.. I was asked to do housework. HOUSEWORK! I had to.. sweep the floor, mop the floor, wash the towel, water the plants..and and.. The problem is, I DON'T EVEN DO ALL THESE AT HOME! Honestly I'm being pampered since young so don't mind me, I'm never hardworking. Of course I still gotta wash my own toilet and some minor stuffs. I can easily reject my parents at home but not at her place. I have to obey her you see. I can never say no. And the worse thing is, after doing such tiring chores no food for you to eat! Not even a packet of maggie can be found in her house. WTF? I was so damn hungry. Fine. When I finally decided to just drink milo there's NO HOT WATER! Wth. Need to boil myself. Self service. Cool huh? STAYING THERE IS A TOTAL TORTURE! More like being a slave sometimes. It's not that bad tho. I get to bake cakes and cookies there. =) Love it.

Apparently, I fell asleep in the living room due to laziness and tiredness. I don't like going out on Fridays no more.

Broken glass, broke again

I'm being a stupid fella once again. I was shocked. My heart sank right till the bottom of the sea that very moment. I'm not being exaggerate nor asking for sympathy. I'm being my emotional self, which most of you dislike. But what can you do exactly, when the feeling just came across and hit you to fall?

I didn't know, you're being such a heartless beast and disloyal person until this morning. I didn't know that was you. You was not the you back then. I don't wanna assume. I don't wanna believe. I don't wanna know. Everyone else have faith in you including me. Everyone said you'll not be one but what you did was proved them all wrong. The best part was, I eventually broke down in silence with tears flowing down like it was raining. I felt devastated. The truth is standing in front of me now, I felt humiliated and cheated. I admit, I hate to face the truth but despite of that, I became nothing out of the blue, not even a piece of stardust. I was gradually trying to accept, before I could, you threw me another piece of cake right onto my face.

Why do guys being such fucking desperate over girls? I'm forced to say I DON'T HATE them because my own cousin being one of them. They are being fucking useless for not knowing what is love. Taking girls as replacement, to cover up the past??!! How do you define 'get over him/her'? How on earth you possibly forget the entire process within months??!! If it is, you're a total sucker, slut, bitch, and whatever it is. I don't know how to describe it anymore. Yes, I'm prejudice towards guys ever since then. I no longer fond over guys.

And yeah, I wanna take this opportunity to thanks someone who consulted me more like a pro. You know who you are. I was amazed by your sense of maturity even though you're way younger than me. I was so touched by your words of support that I actually cried. I must say, you're great in advising. I know you're being serious about it, so do I. I will always take your words with me. You can say I'm good in acting or in another word, lying. You woke me up. It seems like you're the only one who understands me and stand by my side in the entire world. Besides that, there's another person which I sincerely appreciate. A person who loves me more than ever as a lil sister. =)

Okay, I'm prepared for scoldings since I've posted this entry. Let see some of the pictures taken during MPO last week before you start to spam my chatbox.






































There's alot more pictures but.. just a few selected pictures lar. I'm being lazy and restless. Forgive me~

Silence

" It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through.. "

What is hidden in the thin air?

What is love to you? I'm being swept away by love. I'm lost in the jungle. I dunno what path I'm leading to. I wanted to give up, but giving up is not an option. I feel trapped. Homeless. I'm terribly hurt and injured. I didn't even know the feeling of being dumped can be this unbearable. It hurt so much that making sleep impossible. It hurt so much that I hardly breathe sometimes. Altho it's been awhile, I've cried my heart out. I soon realized life was never easy. The way out is not anywhere near sight.

What can you see through my eyes? I'm walking alone. My heart is full of emptiness. I often used excuses to patch up the loneliness. I still can't seems to find back myself. Love has brushed passed me. We were always stuck there at the most beautiful time. Your familiar warmth has never left me. Why is that so? Sometimes I felt there is a barrier between us. An invisible barrier. But at times, you're just so close to me.

In everybody's life, there will be one person that will play a vital role in someone life. Someone to confide their feeling, someone they can trust, someone they feel connected to. There is no why or how, it just happens out of thin air. I always wonder whether I made a wrong choice or not? Why did I let the mistakes ruined everything? I'm still in dilemma. I'm being delusional. I'm being emotional once again.

Life and death is a natural cycle of life. Yet, what is worst than death but the thought that you would no longer be remembered? No longer be able to hold the person you once love so much? No longer put your arms around the shoulder of one's who needs it so much? It is not until the time where you actually lose that someone that you feel the pain and sorrow. As the day reaches, you start to realise and accept that death is actually a phase that must occur. I can't help but to feel the helplessness, the feeling of missing the person, all kinds of memories start to flood in - happy, sad, bitter, sweet.. You actually feel the need and urge to be able to grab hold of that someone one more time, or at least for one last time..


But you can't.


* Drowning in my own sorrow *

Sounds easy but yet the hardest thing to achieve. The fact is, you can never have sunshine everyday. No matter how far we drifted apart, we're still living underneath the same sky. It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves. Let destiny be my answer.

" Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve too.. "

Yes I know, another emotional entry.
You cut me open and I..
Keep bleeding..


It just hit me again.

Innocent Tragedy

"Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on.."

Tragedy of the day.

The very Good Friday we had been waiting for. Discussion started on Monday, dragging the persuasion to Tuesday, bringing forward to Wednesday and finally agreement from all parties on Thursday. Venue decided, time fixed, set.

Everything seems so perfect in the morning. Everyone from different corners of Klang Valley woke up early to start off the long awaited day. Only the part where I have to wait for certain people for ONE HOUR kinda suck. I think it was the longest ever I've waited for a person. I sat at the station for an hour, watching one by one train passed by. If I were to count, I'm afraid I'll fall asleep. Anyway, I'm early myself.

Yes, I sat here waiting alone. Do you know how pity I am? Please remember to set your alarm next time sei chai bao. =)

We were still the earliest to reach among all. We were actually walking aimlessly decided to check out the skating rate and stuff while waiting for the rest.

The moment I saw this, I knew it. My heart sank. Disappointment. * Close for maintainence from 21st Mac to 4th Apr * WHAT THE FUCK!? OF ALL DAYS!? Our main purpose going all the way there is to SKATE! WHY ON EARTH?! The first thing I thought of..Ben and Kin Yang surely cry their hearts out knowing this.

Kin Yang finally called up. "Where are you? Did you see the skating rink?" Instead of answering to his question, "Are you crying now?" We continued to debate about it. ARGH! The girls were kinda relief and happy about it. Unfortunately, I'm standing with the guys. I WANNA SKATE!

After dulan-ing, heartbroken-ing and sad-ing, we finally come to the conclusion.

Eat! Eat all you can to release anger! But please look at the price first. It's Manhattan Fish Market not mamak stall.

Pretty Fish and Chip =)

Pretty bill too.

We headed to cinema next. Since they wanted to watch Ah Long, me and Eng Hui decided to go for 27 Dresses. Actually was because of another fella we were not allow to watch SHUTTER. Be a man! Sad. Girls wanna go shopping, guys wanna go arcade. Alas we seperated. I was actually not in the mood to do anything. Not my day for shopping, I'm warned not to buy anything. What was I thinking that time? I love Sunway Pyramid but I hate Sunway Pyramid as well. I wanted to tears at one moment but I hold back another moment. I tried to free myself from thinking but it doesn't work. The more he said the more worried I am. The more he talked the more confused I am. I felt the pain again. I don't wanna fight back till it ends. The feeling ruined my day.


Overall, the movie was okay. Touching storyline and stupid some. Again, the fella next to me was way too loud. I seriously don't wanna sit with him. I need to enjoy movie peacefully! Our show ended earlier than Ah Long obviously.

So we headed to Old Town to spend a lil time together.



Tea time.

Altogether 11 fellas took bus and went all the way to Cheras from Subang. It's been ages since I last took bus. I guessed today must be 'Bus Day' for most of them. Seriously it wasn't our day. Our trip to pasar malam went down the drain once again because of the stupid heavy rain. Anyway, had a great time chatting in the bus and of course the laughing stock at Leisure Mall. Kin Yang such a joker. =p

I finally get to know what cafe my classmates and friends are talking about. Tan Gilly Cafe. Spent our remaining night there by playing cards and crapping with each other. Everyone looks kinda exhausted, NOT BECAUSE OF SKATING, because of traveling!

"Ohh..you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day.."

We had a real bad day ~