Desideration Kills

I've been slacking alot these days. Very unproductive me.
Study week more on like resting week.

Sleep
Eat
Drama
Drama
Drama
Drama
Eat
Online
Sleep
*Routine goes on repeatedly

Sigh. Something is not right about me. I used to overreact and often chaos during exam but look at me now, I tend to be extremely relax. Tell me this is wrong but I'm totally free from those pre-exam anxiety. Not a single bit of exam mood I have. =(


My friends been complaining that they've got no life, no entertainment, bored, bored and more bored. So am I here. Rawr. But hello? At least you still go to college have some fun with mates. At least you still go to work with things happening. I AM STAYING AT HOME ALONE EVERYDAY. Who to talk with lar? Gadgets. I talk to computer and handphone fyi. U dunno how sad that can be. =(


On a side note, I've been obsessed with red bean lately. As in really addicted to it. Anything gotta do with red bean tempts me. Which I dunno why also. I just love them. <3

Red bean soup with glutinous rice ball
Red bean potong *the ice-cream
Pan-fried red bean pancakes
Bread with red bean paste
Red bean dumplings
Red bean mooncakes
Red bean kuih
Mochi with red bean filling

Eh? But I don't like the red bean in ais kacang lar! Very annoying. Lol. Well I used to hate red bean and goes 'eewww yucks red bean so gross leh' but who knows. Haha. And also, I don't like tong yuen with fillings. I likey my grandmother's tong yuen soup. I likey both my aunts homemade tong yuen. I don't likey my mummy's homemade tong yuen. She got no skill. Hahaha. I like my homemade mango tong yuen the best. Uhhh I likey. <3

Did anyone tell you I love MANGO? Teehee. =)

ps : There's this restaurant, A Little Dim Sum Place at SS2 PJ do serve this Mango Rice Ball desert. I wanna go eat! My cravings. *sobs

Btw, I suddenly remember this. One day I went to college not feeling well wanted to vomit so badly. Then I go around asking people for sour plums, sour sweets or anything sour. They are really helpful indeed. Helpful in the sense that they..

"OMG YOU PREGNANT AR? FASTER TELL ERIC HE SURE VERY HAPPY.."
Instead, they gave me a MINT flavor sweet.
I hate anything mint.
-_______-

I wanna go shopping.
I wanna go for movie.
I wanna go sing k.
I wanna go play whatever play-able.
I wanna go for trips.
I wanna go for vacations.
I wanna hang out and yam cha.
I wanna stayover and talk.
I wanna go buffet.

I want everything I want!

Oh yay! Mooncake festival next weekend! Can play lantern, many many candles and burn the house! Oops. I mean play MASAK-MASAK WEEEEE! Hehee. Super duper fun okay. =)

U dunno how stoopid I am..

I'm getting older apparently. I like oldies can?

Why bother crying over split milk?
Sometimes it's just.. a necessity.

I am stupid, for who I am.


Anything that is too stupid to be spoken is sung..

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

This where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go..
to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

In case you're wondering, it's Avril's song.

Downswing

I don't mind if you never put any trust on me.
I don't mind if you ever blame me for that.
I do forgive you for being harsh on me.
But why.
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO HARD ON ME?
It wasn't meant for others to know.
It's NOT.
Truth hurts for real.

***

I feel totally dejected by the destructive fact.
I feel so much pressure with the exams weight.
I feel completely isolated from everyone.
I feel myself being forgotten.
I see myself disappeared.
I no longer see myself.


My mood going downswing currently.
From moody to bad. Now bad turning far worse.
That's all.

Chill Out Night

I still feel myself floating very much like yesterday. Heck, I'm suffering from sleep deprivation. Nonetheless, the damn song keep bugging by my ear side. It won't go off for real.
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen..


Okay cut the crap first. Back to continuation of the story.

Hmm shopping at Sg Wang turned out to be sort of window shopping. Well like I said before, Sg Wang definitely is not my world anymore. I cannot see any potential clothings for me there. Umm perhaps only ONE out of ONE hundred pieces? We finished walking the whole place within 45 minutes. Or less than that maybe. I seriously dunno where's my shopping paradise now. Very random yet very limited to certain shops only. Let's just put it this way - NO MONEY! SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH to the infinity.


Anyhow, we both bought ONE item each. Her lagging. My skirt. I doubt the skirt will look pretty on me but I love the material. I hereby announce once more, I AM WHOLLY BROKE!
As poor as poor people. Lol. Simple, I am down-and-out. Shit.


We took the bus back. Along the journey, neither of us were talking. Why? We quarreled over the same guy we like. HAHAHA. Okay not funny. WE SLEPT lar duh I almost get into my dream when the idiot bus conductor hit me on my hand JUST TO SHOW HIM TICKETS! I almost wanted to take the water gun from the kid behind and shoot him.


Reached home nearly 3pm. No I didn't sleep straight away although I can possibly lie flat anytime. Instead, I bathed and then continue discussing with my next group of friends on where to go for Merdeka countdown? Lol. We were supposed to watch movie altogether but for I dunno what reason I ended up watching with only Ky. Erm I think I kinda know the reason behind but at the same time I don't think I know? Swt. He came to fetch me before I can nap. AND I'M STILL CURIOUS HOW HE GOT THE TICKETS 2 HOURS BEFORE THE SHOW STARTS? Haha. Like Ben said, he teleported from Sg Long to Cheras while chatting with me online. Lol no matter how or what, THANKS ALOT WEI! I sincerely appreciate all that you've done for me. =)


And so, that evening we went Leisure Mall for movie. I LOVE SINGAPORE MOVIE! I gotta say, Jack Neo's productions never fail me from loving them. I'm a big fans of his shows! From That One Not Enough to Money No Enough, Liang Po Po to Just Follow Law, I Not Stupid to Ah Long Pte Ltd.. none of them disappoint me. Never. U heard me? NEVER!


His production, forever that meaningful, forever that reality, forever that touching, forever that funny, FOREVER THAT ROCKS! The latest one, Money No Enough II was good. But I prefer his previous movies more. Anyway, back to this show. Hmm less Hokkien speaking this time. I hate the background music. Everytime played, I teared. It's truly reality based. I cried like waterfall towards the ending. I was hoping Ky didn't realize but he suddenly turned and asked me ARE YOU OKAY? Hahaha. Malu giler lar. I'm as emo as ever. I can cry over movies, dramas, novels and even songs. What more do you expect? My life is sadistic. =(


After movie, went to picked up Ben followed by Joanne. The very funny part, we lost track of the way to Hulu Langat. Umm we can never rely on Joanne's sense of direction, can we? Hahaha. Trying to stay focus on the roads but never ending conversations. It's been sometimes since we last met up that's why. With Joanne around, we can never stop laughing. SHE'S STILL AS BLUR AS EVER THE JOANNE WE KNEW FROM DAY ONE. Lol.


Hell loads of cars and humans even before reaching the bottom of the hill? So we parked right at the bottom, far far away from the hill top. I tell you, we walked for 45 minutes just to get our ass up there. OMG DAMN FAR. But because we were all so hyper, never really feel the tiredness. Along the journey, we crap talk sing and 1 burger 4 people share. Hehehe.

Mind me, I was too lazy to look back o_o

They love my camera weee~

These staircase.. my nightmare of the day.

peace to merdeka?

My camera sucks like.. holly shit? I WANT SLR! wtf.

I don't even know Choo wasn't in the photo. Swt!

Aww I likey this very muchie! EuJin and Joanne. =)

Oops belum ready? @_@

And please ignore my swollen eyes.. damn obvious wei!!

the GUYS

Potential posers weee~

Cool? xD

Emooooooooooooooo =(

I noticed something awkward that night. WHY AM I SO SHORT COMPARED TO THE REST OF THEM? Shit I mean I didn't know I was THAT short all this while? KY WAS LIKE SO BLOODY TALL WITH ME STANDING IN FRONT OF HIM? And Joanne too. They grow taller or I grow shorter? I think my pertumbuhan terbantut. Only can grow wider, not taller. Wtf.


We waited anxiously for the fireworks but to our surprise, KLCC NO FIREWORKS? HOW CAN? Again, great disappointment. We were starving ourselves just to see the damn fireworks and this is how Malaysia treat us. We gave up after waiting for 20 minutes or more. Choo suggested mamak so we hungrily walked down the stairs but you know what? We ended up walking back up the bloody stairs after seeing the massive jam. I think I can seriously faint that moment. Ky and Joanne were RUNNING UP like marathon wth. Finally we got up there again, found a place, sat down and stared at the menu. They only serve Merdeka set that night, each set cost RM30++ and one drink cost RM7!!! "I RATHER JAM GO MAMAK EAT!" That's how everyone changed their mind and DOWN WE GO AGAIN.
Omg I tell you, like climbing Batu Caves!


Don't care, we hopped into Kenneth's car for a ride down hill to Ky's car. THANK GOD HIS CAR WAS THERE TO SAVE US. I miss the fun singing in the car, blasting the music out loud, reminiscing the journey back from island. We were so loud like we were the bus owner. I MISS WEEEEE! Lol. In Ky's car, we were merely talking about random stuffs. One of it - DREAM. The two guys started debating while us listening behind.


Ben : We cannot control what we wanna dream.. (explaining how dream function)
Ky : Actually can wan.. my fren bla bla bla..
Ben : Our left brain kinda control dream.. right brain for daily activities bla bla bla..
Ky : Joanne, which side?
Joanne : LEFT SIDE.
Ky then put the left signal preparing to turn left..
Joanne : Right brain for daily activities mar.
Ky immediately stop the signal.
Ky : I'M ASKING YOU WHICH SIDE TO TURN LAR. dash underscore dash. -___-


My stomach almost explode due to over laughing. Poor driver searching for his own direction. Lol. Thanks to JOANNE our dear joker. The desperate girl, die die want FISH THERAPY while snorkeling. Weee. Then me and Ben will be laughing underwater. I MISS THE FUN! Crap.


Went to a mamak which I never go before. Mamak King? Hmm their maggi goreng taste weird. Should have follow majority order the famous rojak mee instead. I was very hungry, so didn't bother much. Hahaha. Anyway, thanks guys for making my night, have loads of fun and tears of laughter. The night ended with everyone barely alive at 3am.


I must say this -

40 HOURS WITHOUT SLEEP!


ps: Lol I was quite shocked viewing Ben's page just now because he actually wrote about me? WITH MY PICTURE IN IT ALSO. Lol scare me.

pps: EXAM IS LIKE 3 DAYS AWAY and look what I'm doing now.. God won't bless me you see. Tak insaf insaf. Anyone wanna cry together-gether with me? T__________T

The Best Damn Thing

Everything started on Friday..

AVRIL LAVIGNE LIVE IN MALAYSIA. So that evening, I went down to town slightly earlier to buy dinner before meeting up with my partner of the day. Lol. Speaking of this, didn't know that there's a Pizza Hut in Pavillion! Oh god, really sweat. I was walking superbly fast - call and sms coming in because I was late to the station. Okay skip.


I HATE MONORIL! Urgh. Their service - one of the utmost dissatisfy. Touch & Go cannot use, cannot top up, cannot check balance. Whatdaheck fine. The station was flooded with people. We only managed to get into the train after 3 attempts. Those annoying people kept pushing their fat ass. The worst thing is, they bloody squashed our food into flat mass. Wtf this I cannot tolerate man. We, inside the train already suffered from suffocation but those people still crushed in like babi. I was so tension worrying the bowl of soup might freaking explode and meanwhile I still gotta eye on my bag and pocket. We were almost feeling like we were bathing in a pool of sweats. Sucks I tell you.


By the time we reached Stadium Merdeka, the place was already crowded. The best thing was, nobody, I repeat, NOBODY bring such obvious food like what we did, stupidly carrying a box of pizza with side dishes along plus doughnuts. Hahaha. Most of them were eating burgers, rushing to finish off before the gates open. And us? Still grab hold of our beloved pizza openly, pretending we were blind, completely ignored the damn signboard there which says "NO FOOD ALLOWED". Lol. I didn't know I was so daring to break the rules. Owh, and there was this bunch of gang queuing at the row beside us, laughing cause I was hugging the pizza. Wtf.

The crowdsss.

When it's finally time to check in, we were told to open our bags for BAG CHECKING! How can? My bag was filled with garlic bread while Yen's was hiding the doughnuts. Nightmare began. The guard immediately stopped us.

Guard : What's inside the plastic bag?
Yen & Me : Er.. food?
Guard : Cannot bring food in.
Me : We need to eat. We haven't eat. Nevermind lar let us in lar please..
Guard : Put all in your bags.
Me : *Stunned, thinking how to put the BOX OF PIZZA INTO A SLING BAG?*
Guard : Go lar. Later they catch I dunno.
Another usher : I help you take and eat for you lar.
Me : Lol. You let me in I give you ONE slice of pizza.

Hahaha. Off we went in WITHOUT NEED TO HIDE. God bless. We couldn't stop grinning and proudly showing off to the whole world we brought pizza in. Lol. Later on, we literally revealed our foods in public, as if we were there to picnic? Hahaha.

What do you expect for dinner? =)

Not long after that, it started to RAIN. We had our dinner under the rain. Poor us. Not that proud of our smartness anymore. Lol.

RAINBOW! Click to view.



The stage..

Fugly raincoat o_o


After..

Overall, the concert was sort of disappointing. Actually, very disappointing. They cut short the duration like hell. I have no words for Malaysia. All I can say, they sucks. Anyway, AVRIL SO PRETTY SO SLIM SO CUTE SO NICE SO WOW! Although her singing kinda.. lifeless a little? Well who wouldn't be spiritless after being banned by a certain country who tried to bring her down? Whatever it is, I'm still impressed with her emo piano performance! Emoooooo like hell. So touching man. T______________________________T And I'm so in love with her songsss especially THE BEST DAMN THING. The song just stuck on my head even until now. Let me hear you say HEY HEY HEY!~


The night ended MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE earlier than we expected. Thus, we went back and sleep? Boo that will not happen to two crazy fellers. We sticked to our original plan to camp in city of Kuala Lumpur. Really, we were so energetic and hyperactive after the concert that we wanted to SING so badly. So.. YenYen was desperate enough to come out with this brilliant suggestion and dumped our previous plan that is to watch midnight movie. Hmm couldn't think of anyone to help us check out the pricing, ended up calling this abrupt person. Lol. I was quite reluctant at first but after being forced and convinced, I gave in. Thanks for your help lor. =)


We then walked all the way from stadium to Low Yat. I know its dangerous walking at that time of the day but, can't help it either. Despite we were quite early, we loitered around that area, singing and talking. Hahaha. Told you, we were already seemingly 'high' before entering the place. So you can imagine us inside the room, just the two of us.


Grrr please don't get me wrong. Lol. We went CHEONG K! Omg hell nice. Again, first time singing together-gether. Omg damn sampat. Another sampat thing is we kinda 'jungle' seeing the supper buffet. HAHAHA. We acted jakun once again. Yen even got shocked by the bread toaster because she dunno which button to press, the bread just jumped up suddenly. Lol. She kinda gone crazy seeing just tuna? and whatever on the table there. Sigh this is what we called, JAGA BADAN! Who cares when you see those foodsssss like heaven.. HOW TO RESIST YOU TELL ME! -__________-

1am, Redbox toilet. =/

We were merely singing like nobody business, screaming our lungs out, laughing like crazy women throughout the k session. Seriously, if you ever see us, the first thing that would come to your mind will be, "These two girls from Tanjung Rambutan ke?" Hahaha. We simply crapped with the waitress and waiters working there. Slowly, the hyper side gradually faded, starting to get tired after 3 hours of solid singing.


Around 4.30am, we dragged ourselves to nearby McD and spent the rest of our morning there talking and soon, nap for awhile. Swt. I think, those people there must be wondering why the hell two kids stayed up so late. The aircond was bloody darn cold omg. Dunno why, my stomach cramped like fucking pain during that particular hour. I can barely move. And Yen, I think I took the wrong pills. Lol. Not that also.

Out of boredom throughout the morning..





Finally sunrise, the sky got brighter. We had breakfast at McD since we were there the whole night. Hahaa. Honestly, this is only my second time having to eat the Big Breakfast set in my entire life. We love the hash brown! Hehe. We continue talking AGAIN, eventhough we'd been talking since forever. Not forgetting, we refilled our coffee again and again until fully bloated. Went opposite to Lot10 to clean up then headed to Sg Wang for shopping.


Seriously, I had loads of fun just having to talk and spill out whatever that came across me. Like, really truly everything and anything without hiding bits of my feelings. Be it random topics or sensitive personal issues. I just love doing this. I don't mind just 2 people. =)


CAN YOU BELIEVE TWO GIRLS ACTUALLY WENT THROUGH SUCH ADVENTURE?
I still cannot believe the fact that we, me and you actually did it.
Let this be one of our best memorable moments together. =)

To be continued..

Hit - Or - Miss

Random post ahead -

` Ohh tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air.. '

I just got myself fuck up with the darn notes. I tried so hard to read and yet zero absorption. I think, my brain must have lost its ability to function already. In another word, rot. I seriously need to stay focus. I need to INSAF sayang. I'm not even close to finishing ONE blardy chapter outta 5 SUBJECTS until this moment! Serious shit. I dunno how to face this. GG o_o

H.E.L.P.

T.O.L.O.N.G.

***

OMFGGGGGGGGGG I WANT THIS!!!

OMG SO DAMN FREAKING NICE! Whoever give me this I will married him straight away. Omg desperate hell. *cough* MY BIRTHDAY COMING! *cough* Sad. Like which human on earth is effking generous who willing to buy me a ring from Tiffany & Co. *slaps* But look how pretty is it my darling.. T____________________________________________T


***

Yesterday badminton was rather challenging. I was feeling so much pressure playing with a pro. Pro vs lousy. Lol. Surprisingly, it was the first time we ever played badminton together though. Hahaha weird. Sigh when it comes to sports thingy, you can imagine how sucky I am lar. Exercise once in a blue moon, should be proud enough for a lazy fat ass pig. =)


***

You know, I gotta say I hate people who look through my eyes when they're talking to me. I mean, they REALLY REALLY look DEEP into my eyes and and.. STARE WITH THE EYES OPEN BIGGER THAN A FISHBALL? Is like a sharp piercing pierce through your eyes. Ahhh SCARY! I bumped into this guy TWICE consecutively today and this is what happened. I had goosebumps whenever he tried to start a conversation with me. Anxiety boiling as if it's going to overflow each time he approached me. Why and how did he even put such weight on me? Crap. Frankly speaking, I somehow thought of avoiding him or maybe to the extend of running away from him before but nah. What stupid joke. He is still my dear friend despite all the sweet memorable memories we once gone through together.

WHY treat me like this lar friend. Sobs!

***

Anyway people, we shall strive for the best! Heck, I'm trying to be optimistic okay! To most of my friends who are battling in exams now or soon, you know who are you -
GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST! I'm gonna join in the war soon. Oh fcuk no kidding o_o



But no, I gave up on him. After much consideration, I decided to get rid of him although I still have feelings for him. Ever since I found out the truth, it hurts more than I thought. Why him of million billion guys out there? I always wanted a 'clean' impression of him and I still believe in him until the horrible news struck me. Honestly, I was very very very startled AND disappointed by the fact that he's just another jerk. Why am I even upset for an individual like him? Well, love is blind can't help myself from the trauma still.


Say bye-bye to sadness and hello to happiness. After all, life goes on no matter what right. So why worry and have wrinkles when you can enjoy and be happy (:

`There's always rainbow after rainy days` xDDD

Sunshine and love be with you,
In rainy days I shall be with you..~

JOM CLUBBING!!!