Start of the month today or probably a long getaway weekend for those working/studying but for me, just another ordinary Friday, Saturday and Sunday because apparently everyday is holiday to me now haha. It's going to take some time getting used to this long bit of freedom hmm. Truth is, my pocket bleeds with the freedom granted. Shopping, movies, dining, yamcha, trips.. you pay the price to enjoy. It hurts, big big. T_____T
Seriously, I still don't know what to do next in my life. I wake up everyday thinking how should I move towards my future. I tried to find that source of inspiration but failed. And it makes me feel useless for not knowing the answer. I don't have goals to achieve; maybe I have but I'm not sure about it. I'm living everyday aimlessly - schoolless, jobless, lifeless. And I obviously know this cannot go on the way it is.. couple of weeks more before I make the big decision. I'm feeling screwed already. I want to lie here and forget the world can I?
Sigh.
I think my computer is kong-ing soon. Black screen appears whenever the window is starting up. Motherboard exploding anytime. If it really dies one day (it is dying!), I probably gonna change the entire system and buy a new laptop. On top of that, my baby phone is cracking ridiculously so I guess it's time for a new baby teehee. I'm still thinking on Iphone but then it's not worth buying here in Malaysia yet pffts. Plus I'm actually considering on getting an Ipod, for the sake of owning one since the price is kinda affordable. (I SHOULD ANTI IPOD FTW) Oh, I want a new camera as well - Nikon DSLR if possible. The digi cam I'm using now is like worthless already damn sad case. God knows how much all these gadgets cost but yeah, I'm willing to invest my money on them. :)
It's gloomy outside, plus a little quiet since most of the neighbours are back in hometown. 3.30pm now, I'm only meeting the cousins at 6-ish later for dinner. Maybe I should get going to my aunt's house to do some baking.
When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you're braving..
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