.....her life at 26

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Words that break bones.

There are a big portions of my life in which I often forget how time pass by so quickly. Quarter first of the year; life still as challenging as ever. I guessed I no longer have time to scribble my emotional thoughts here because I'm constantly exhausted and finding my precious sleep out of work.

Like almost everyone, I would yearn for a fulfilling, happy, healthy and colorful life. We keep searching for something more, wish for things that are beyond our reach and never feel contented. The paradox of life; everybody wants to live a long life, but nobody wants to get old. Everybody wants to go to the heaven, but nobody wants to die. It's a sad melody of yearning. And so, hope is what everyone bears in mind while awaiting new surprises in our lives.

So do I.

Much has changed over the years, unfortunately my relationship status hasn't changed at all. People often think that loneliness is caused by not having a spouse, family and a whole bunch of friends to be with. Think again. A person can have everything and still choose to be lonely. Likewise, a person might not have all of those things and choose not to be lonely. It was from him that I learnt about loneliness, and I'm really thankful for that. The occasional longing for someone does hunt me at night, but I survived. We often hold onto things that we have clearly outgrown, simply because of the comfort we derive from them. It is not until we realize that if we choose to let go onto that which make us drown, we can actually swim. Everybody chooses.

Sometimes we think that the reason why we are unhappy is because of the things that are missing in life. In most cases, happiness is always available to us. Why bother postponing happiness when you have the chance to embrace it every day. The other day when we went for tomb sweeping at our grandparents, devastating memories revisit. People lose loved ones when they are not quite ready to let them go, it's true and when the pain is so personal, the feelings became especially difficult to soothe. I guessed we have all moved on, not because we have forgotten them, or stop loving them, but because we respect the decision to lay them to rest.

Give me the strength to keep on walking, and keep on believing.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Bridge of light.

A lazy, restless welcome to myself on this blog on a year I hope it's new enough to bring me greater happiness. In these days, weeks and months, I tend to fall unconditionally into deep thoughts and concerns, those that have not cross my tiny mind during my younger days. I guess age does change a person. I'm beginning to have faith, at the same time very much afraid of losing it to others. I have been saying this for some time now but there are days that this life is horribly unfair. At the end of it all I find myself breathless, tired and utmost pessimistic. But coming to terms with it for the longest time, it's all part of the puzzle of growing up.

This year, I just want to remain simple. :)

Little difference we can always look for.

Our first official game at Suria. More to come yo!

My 2nd epic Christmas party in Leo Burnett. :)

Technical Director is a superstar! :p

What happened that night, stays that night.

The emergency food storage!

Signing off the year. Free flow Tuborg in office!

Buddy lookalike!

Loudspeaker mission accomplished!

2 0 1 2 ♥

Cheers to pretty fireworks!

First date of the year.

What more can you ask for in advertising's life?

Meet the night owls.

Holler to our awesome possum vending machine! ♥♥♥

Me likey facial day!

Rest in peace little puffer. T_T

Thai Thai for two! Major love. ♥

Best of La La Chong! And pole dancers it says. -_-

Cuteness overload. :p

Ultimate Sunday with the girls. ♥

Can you feel the chemistry? :)

Our authentic kopitiam discovery. ♥

Classic combo.

Driving down that road every morning.

G Cup at Kenanga Mall! That place is a big disappointment. :(

The dragon's sweet tooth.

The fattest ang pao I've ever received! ♥ ♥ ♥

Happy prosperous CNY y'all. :)

Friday, December 30, 2011

The one that got away.

Last working day of the year and here I am, sleeping on my annual leave. Life is good. :)

So much happened this year. It was turbulent for just about everyone to anguish over the loss of our grandparents. I still find the absence very, very bitter. It's unbearable and it is a sorrow that cuts to the core even until today. The other day when I was officially brought to a church service, tears immediately broke down. I felt Pastor when he speaks. I felt the pain weighing on my back. I felt that grief piercing through my heart. But it was all good then, and I especially love the Christmas production.

So a little more than a year ago, I began my journey in LB plainly because I was offered to do so. Never in my entire 21 years that I would imagine myself growing in an advertising agency. It has been a deeply fulfilling 12 months and a wonderful experience with the company. One year later, I'm thrilled with what I've come about and eager to do even more. In addition to being responsible for sports club, apparently my first VP position came as the result of people powered election. It seemed like a long, grinding path I couldn't see myself taking but with great players, I believe we're gonna rock on next year!

The longest period I have not touchdown in a healthy relationship now and I personally think that this year was a great year of being single despite all our chaotic drinking, trips, parties and after parties. While flings and hook ups have come and gone, it hasn't been too terribly awful except for that particular reason that brought my feelings, burning. A false jump indeed, but I think we are cool with what we are today and continue to be cool for the rest of the time.

With the old year gone, here's to a new beginning!

Monday, November 28, 2011

It will rain.

So, I'm back. For good.

Took some time off blogging due to the messed up, never ending timeline. It has been a long way of soul searching, but am glad to say that I am quite a happy person lately. And on this rainy afternoon, I grew up to this point of life where my career is playing a huge part in almost everything I do. Everything seems so fine except I failed to strike a balance between work and family. My parents never liked my job ever since the work hours became intolerance. But by far my biggest insight is plain and simple - I like what I do and I love who I work with. It's not that I didn't know that before, but I had more thoughtful time to break that down being with people who spread good cheer. And the best thought of all is that my 1 year working anniversary is only 3 days away!

While playing hard to get in a relationship, at times, can be really tiring. If played incorrectly, you might even lose that person in the game. I don't see how our relationship would grow at this moment, but it's definitely infusing a shot of mystery into the depths of a sultry romance. The game generally is deceptive, and often gets frustrating when the level of longing isn't there for me to endure. This has never been my usual approach, just so you know, oh boy, it's just another natural progression of life.