Holla I'm officially on a THREE months break now. :)
It took me 1234567890 hours today to complete my baby coffee table book okay! While my group members, one was singing at Redbox Sunway Pyramid when I called him earlier and another called me for tickets reservation huh wtf weyh. Life is blardy unfair pffts. T______T But because I cannot trust them to do this kinda artwork thingy so I'd to volunteer lar right hmph.
Hurhur. 2012 WAS FREAKING EFFKING AWESOME!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Tonight is the night to let it go.
I can't believe I'm staying over with ma boys tonight! At Juju's house currently. :)
Well, long story on how did I even end up here. But I'd to thank them really for being such lovely and thoughtful friends for the first time today wtf. For accompanying me through my fugly mood even when we have more important things to rush on. For putting up with my temper and emoeness this afternoon. For preparing meal for me even if I refused to eat. For cracking lame jokes even without me layan-ing. I should be feeling better already now under their comforts zone.
This is us in Juju's room here!
While the boys playing PES...
I camwhore?
And blog?
Heh finally starting on assignment under ma supervision.
His cute little baby niece just went to bed without her winnie the pooh.
2012 in another hour! Thank kiu my dear.
Well, long story on how did I even end up here. But I'd to thank them really for being such lovely and thoughtful friends for the first time today wtf. For accompanying me through my fugly mood even when we have more important things to rush on. For putting up with my temper and emoeness this afternoon. For preparing meal for me even if I refused to eat. For cracking lame jokes even without me layan-ing. I should be feeling better already now under their comforts zone.
This is us in Juju's room here!
While the boys playing PES...
I camwhore?
And blog?
Heh finally starting on assignment under ma supervision.
His cute little baby niece just went to bed without her winnie the pooh.
2012 in another hour! Thank kiu my dear.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Even if the sky is falling down.
OMG I AM FINALLY BREATHING THE STRESS FREE AIR!
So, it's the end of my first university semester. Four months from now, I'll be back in this house (Cyberjaya) groaning and moaning about how much workloads to do. On a brighter note, I can't wait to go home tomorrow and be the pampered princess once again. You know, I just done doing household chores and been cooking for 2 consecutive dinners! Yesterday was cabbage+japanese taufu+eggy+chicken and today, luncheon meat+eggy+kankung. Fuah can cook like housewife okay hahaha. (except the kitchen was ABIT messy lar -_-) But it tasted superb good I kid you not!
Had an extremely chilling afternoon right after exam today. 6 hours of karaoke is definitely a kool thing to do after those horrible terrible vegetable weeks. Aww I damn love ma duet partner babe! So far he is the one who can duet malay/indon songs with me hurhur. Plus we sang mostly all sentimental and love songs. *tears* Especially when it comes to Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat. Damnnn emotional.
Haven't had enough of sleep lately. NEVER ENOUGH. So it's time for a perfect rest now, good nighttt.
Truly, madly, deeply...
So, it's the end of my first university semester. Four months from now, I'll be back in this house (Cyberjaya) groaning and moaning about how much workloads to do. On a brighter note, I can't wait to go home tomorrow and be the pampered princess once again. You know, I just done doing household chores and been cooking for 2 consecutive dinners! Yesterday was cabbage+japanese taufu+eggy+chicken and today, luncheon meat+eggy+kankung. Fuah can cook like housewife okay hahaha. (except the kitchen was ABIT messy lar -_-) But it tasted superb good I kid you not!
Had an extremely chilling afternoon right after exam today. 6 hours of karaoke is definitely a kool thing to do after those horrible terrible vegetable weeks. Aww I damn love ma duet partner babe! So far he is the one who can duet malay/indon songs with me hurhur. Plus we sang mostly all sentimental and love songs. *tears* Especially when it comes to Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat. Damnnn emotional.
Haven't had enough of sleep lately. NEVER ENOUGH. So it's time for a perfect rest now, good nighttt.
Truly, madly, deeply...
Monday, November 16, 2009
Doorway to the heart.
Somehow I'd always thought that I can take things alone, I can still pretend strong even if I'm not. But yesterday, I'd lost all the courage to do so.
For some reasons, I just broke down and cried. In fact, I've not been crying my heart out for more than a year now ever since my first relationship failed. I suddenly felt so weak. I realized I hadn't had a shoulder to lean on, to cry on. Moving on has never been this hard. But why is it so hard this time?
It feels surreal. I've been swaying in and out of reality and I can't tell the difference anymore - what's real, what's not. I've completely let go of myself and been allowing new things to seep into my life so easily but yet, I can't get over this blend of emotions I'm feeling right now. The stress I've been going through for the past few weeks - its overwhelming. Before I can digest them all at once, finals is driving me insane already. The complications, the emptiness, the loneliness, the emotions, the frustration, the everything.
Seriously, I don't know what possessed me to jump into this so blindly. It hurts so much to feel this way. Tears keep rolling over my cheek. It strikes me as if this is going to be the end of the world. Is like nobody is there for me at this present time. No one tends to bother about my feeling. At times I feel that people are just using me for their own sake.
Apparently I lost the urge to keep smiling and laughing. I don't know what makes me happy now. Tell me how do I survive this drama alone. Even the strongest people aren't strong enough for this sometimes. Everything just hangs over at this very moment, making my life so difficult. I'm suffocating inside.
It's been a gloomy day thanks to the very gloomy weather and the very fucked up paper.
I'm relief to say that it will be coming to an end, very soon.
And thankfully, my boys are staying here with me tonight.
Hopefully tomorrow's a better day.
For some reasons, I just broke down and cried. In fact, I've not been crying my heart out for more than a year now ever since my first relationship failed. I suddenly felt so weak. I realized I hadn't had a shoulder to lean on, to cry on. Moving on has never been this hard. But why is it so hard this time?
It feels surreal. I've been swaying in and out of reality and I can't tell the difference anymore - what's real, what's not. I've completely let go of myself and been allowing new things to seep into my life so easily but yet, I can't get over this blend of emotions I'm feeling right now. The stress I've been going through for the past few weeks - its overwhelming. Before I can digest them all at once, finals is driving me insane already. The complications, the emptiness, the loneliness, the emotions, the frustration, the everything.
Seriously, I don't know what possessed me to jump into this so blindly. It hurts so much to feel this way. Tears keep rolling over my cheek. It strikes me as if this is going to be the end of the world. Is like nobody is there for me at this present time. No one tends to bother about my feeling. At times I feel that people are just using me for their own sake.
Apparently I lost the urge to keep smiling and laughing. I don't know what makes me happy now. Tell me how do I survive this drama alone. Even the strongest people aren't strong enough for this sometimes. Everything just hangs over at this very moment, making my life so difficult. I'm suffocating inside.
It's been a gloomy day thanks to the very gloomy weather and the very fucked up paper.
I'm relief to say that it will be coming to an end, very soon.
And thankfully, my boys are staying here with me tonight.
Hopefully tomorrow's a better day.
parahnya diseksa sunyi sepi
beginikah perasaan pabila kita disisih cinta
ku sangka ku tabah berdikari...
beginikah perasaan pabila kita disisih cinta
ku sangka ku tabah berdikari...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare.
PEOPLE I AM STILL ALIVE HEREEEEE
Just that I'm toooooooooo lazy and busy to blog. I have ALL assignments due in few more days, first paper starting this Saturday! Fml seriously. So stress damn stress fucking stress! Somebardy help me write a 2000 words essay wtf. This is the last week of semester anyway, may the force be with me! And soon after, I will have many many happy days lining up for me. December baby I can't waittttt.
Damn sohai pictures because I is a cutie and prettie and chubbie and hottie and sexie retard. ^^
Meh I think I forgot to delete some of these pictures in the lab pc! FML. What if someone sees them... hahaha! Oh that someone just appeared out of nowhere in ma class yesterday wtf. He scares me. T______T
It's 3.15pm now. I'm supposed to be in school for some revision class but due to some brain error, I'm now at home jamming with ma guitar boys. With nyummie cuppacakes!
Just that I'm toooooooooo lazy and busy to blog. I have ALL assignments due in few more days, first paper starting this Saturday! Fml seriously. So stress damn stress fucking stress! Somebardy help me write a 2000 words essay wtf. This is the last week of semester anyway, may the force be with me! And soon after, I will have many many happy days lining up for me. December baby I can't waittttt.
Damn sohai pictures because I is a cutie and prettie and chubbie and hottie and sexie retard. ^^
Meh I think I forgot to delete some of these pictures in the lab pc! FML. What if someone sees them... hahaha! Oh that someone just appeared out of nowhere in ma class yesterday wtf. He scares me. T______T
It's 3.15pm now. I'm supposed to be in school for some revision class but due to some brain error, I'm now at home jamming with ma guitar boys. With nyummie cuppacakes!
These wounds wouldn't seem to heal, this pain is just too real;
...there's just too much that time cannot erase.
...there's just too much that time cannot erase.
Friday, November 6, 2009
You lift my soul and lift my spirit higher.
4th day back in school and I'm almost fucked up already!
I guessed Bali trip left a really great impact on me. I'm now like the spotlight in uni suck ma life for god sake. I have many random stalkers scaring the shiet out of me hurhur. Ugh all because of him back in Bali. Someone even betrayed my phone number? Don't ever lemme catch which culprit wtf. Things are becoming motherfuckingly obvious and the whole FCMB gang are actually discussing about it, even on Facebook! T______T My name is gone for real. They are crazy people man hahaha.
Still, I love the idea of being unity with them. At least now I no longer stuck in only my own circle of friends. Which is a damn good thing! Like I said earlier, so much happened in just a week. Things changed back in here. I don't fucking care if you're using me to stay in the relationship. Fine, I can still tolerate that. But don't fucking go overboard okay? I have my limitations geddit? Don't fucking mess with my life. So angry!
I blown out to the boys and they felt the same! Woots so happyyyy. We had many many heart talks just now because of all these issues we're facing. I'm glad they chose to protect me and reassured me that they'll be by my side always. Aww.
ma cheebye bois!
This is the best part among all the places we visited! Bad hair day. *peace*
Sakais. xD
Obama HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Our volkswagen.
One loph!
More pictures coming soon. I PROMISE. Gimme time please!
Someone is dragging me to supper at 12.30am! Oh noes I smell you. Xoxo.
I guessed Bali trip left a really great impact on me. I'm now like the spotlight in uni suck ma life for god sake. I have many random stalkers scaring the shiet out of me hurhur. Ugh all because of him back in Bali. Someone even betrayed my phone number? Don't ever lemme catch which culprit wtf. Things are becoming motherfuckingly obvious and the whole FCMB gang are actually discussing about it, even on Facebook! T______T My name is gone for real. They are crazy people man hahaha.
Still, I love the idea of being unity with them. At least now I no longer stuck in only my own circle of friends. Which is a damn good thing! Like I said earlier, so much happened in just a week. Things changed back in here. I don't fucking care if you're using me to stay in the relationship. Fine, I can still tolerate that. But don't fucking go overboard okay? I have my limitations geddit? Don't fucking mess with my life. So angry!
I blown out to the boys and they felt the same! Woots so happyyyy. We had many many heart talks just now because of all these issues we're facing. I'm glad they chose to protect me and reassured me that they'll be by my side always. Aww.
ma cheebye bois!
This is the best part among all the places we visited! Bad hair day. *peace*
Sakais. xD
Obama HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Our volkswagen.
One loph!
More pictures coming soon. I PROMISE. Gimme time please!
Someone is dragging me to supper at 12.30am! Oh noes I smell you. Xoxo.
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