Thursday, November 27, 2008

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.

I think my mood somehow got a little better. I think.

I'm being a bitch lately; emo emo and more emo, being rebellious at home, not replying to smses and calls, behave sarcastically and whatever you can think of. Eventually, I made everyone hate me for those good old reasons.

I'm sorry. So so so sorry.

It makes me realize who true friends are.
I love the
Animals because no matter what happens they're always there for me. Xoxo <3

After what happened these days, today is the one and only day I felt much relief. Class at 8am, I woke up at 8.30 and reached college at 9 if I'm not mistaken. Who cares. Then I had to rush all the way to replace tomorrow's class without having any break to eat, only to realize something isn't right about me. So.. that was it. I can finally put down the nightmare after days of depression. At least I'm a little happier now. And then it was literature session in library. Fell asleep for the whole hour where I'm supposed to study LAW? Sigh stomach was so painful till I literally sweating in an aircond room. Left library and ran off for midterm test.

40 MINUTES TO SETTLE A LAW CASE LIKE HOW CAN

Sigh overall I don't think I wrote enough facts to support my answer, plus most of it seems pointless and repetition. Ahhh who cares again! As long as it's over I don't give a damn.

SO MUCH MORE TO WORRY!

Btw, this was taken when we were at Kepong few days back to play for drama.


What was he drinking? Hmm.. *look at the TWO pathetic balloons o_o
This silly guy make me laugh like mad everyday with the lamest jokes wth -__-

This.. that we messed up the kitchen for. Someone even had his finger cut and then
blood started to sprint everywhere and eventually we thought of Happy Tree Friends. -_-

This was at Sunway Pyramid early this year for CNY shopping.

Memories.

See how time flies.

I actually plans on something for this person since I purposely called a day off tomorrow but it doesn't seems to make any difference. Time shall decide.

MARKETING OH MARKETING HERE I COME.


Tuesday, November 25, 2008

They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.

There isn't a need to clarify things further because practically everyone is writing the same, repeating what we have to say to be on the safe side I assumed. Honestly, I have so much to say but words just don't come out.

What is the use of defending yourself when you chose to let such a thing happened?
It's really too late. You just ended our journey with a full stop.

This is what we had, what we build, what we are.






















My tears are flowing for so many reasons. Words left unsaid, deeds left undone. The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.

..when something's over, it's over. it can never start again.
when it's broken you can never put back the pieces..




Monday, November 24, 2008

We are the reason.

I have no words to describe whatever shit that is happening between us.

I'm still avoiding the fact that it ruined, completely.

Please just tell me it's all a joke.

Friday, November 21, 2008

A heart worth breaking.


Empty promises. Commitments. Responsibilities. Irrationality.
Selfishness.
Security. Understanding. Reassurance. Toleration.


Words can be mere lies.


There are times I wish none of this ever happened, that things would go back to how they used to be. I'm being pissed still over the whole incident for some particular reasons. Call me small gas or whatsoever, so what. Small little things do have its own value. Small little things do meant something. Small little things are still things. That doesn't mean it can be anything less important. That doesn't mean it can be cared less. That doesn't mean it can be neglected like that. At least, it meant something to me.

I really can't handle it when tension arises. It makes me realize how weak I am after all. I held on to the hope that things would work out. I held on to the hope that things would change.. for the better. I was told so;promises. But today, thoughts teared me apart while I drive. The more hope I place, the more disappointed I am bound to feel each day. I really shouldn't have any expectations, is that so? Yet, I'm bottling up with so many emotions.

Wrong signals. Wrong impressions. Wrong everything.
We're constantly being led on. We're constantly being deceived. We're constantly living under false illusions. We're constantly confused about every goddamn thing.

Sometimes you just can't help the way things end up.
Sometimes even doing the right thing fucks you up.


Caught this real HUGE spider crawling during today's practice.



I was living in denial for quite sometime
and that's how I landed myself in this whirlwind of emotions.

I've been having expectations for a lot of things, from a lot of people.
I knew it was a stupid thing to have done from the start.
Yet I held on to those expectations.



I tried not to burst for once. I couldn't.
Because things changed.
I knew it. I knew it a long time ago.
I just didn't want to believe it.


It took me awhile to realize how useless my attempts were.
It took me awhile to notice how much I was draining out of myself.
And end up with nothing more nothing lesser.
I've been hurting myself with hopes.


Expressions I needed to express.


Leave.Me.Alone.





Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Am I scaring you tonight?

One word to describe today would be TIRING!
My body and mind are way to dead to function right now.

Had the EARLIEST class at 8am today, nevermind. Gotta absorb MARKETING theories with the eyes barely opening and FREEZING LIKE ZOMBIE in the hall even with jacket on wtf. Later in law class, suffered for TWO solid hours cracking the brain, all kind of juices came flowing out. Sigh and based on what I learned TODAY, I might as well just fail my assignment.

Well oh well, to kinda celebrate that we finally hand in LAW assignment and happily fail with great honour, we went straight to The Curve after tutorial at 2pm.

AND FREAKING REACHED HOME AT THIS TIME!

As promised..

Mr. Alson, driver of the day.


Nothing beat girls at camwhoring in the toilet.

Anyway, too many pictures I can't be uploading ALL. So at first, we wanted to just dine there, chill and then go home. And before that, everyone warned themselves NO SINGING K since most of them are karaoke kaki. Who knows.. WHO KNOWS WE ENDED UP IN REDBOX THE CURVE. But it's only 8 BUCKS FOR 4 HOURS PLUS DAMN CHEAP OKAY.

EH EH EHHHHHHH THIS IS GAVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS GROUP!
How coincidence. I just noticed this picture. Gold hair leader. 3 cutie chipmunks. =)


The white tee couple.

Mi-che-le..

Hmm this is my biological brother. Most tutors thought we are siblings. =)
Ahh when he kena called to answer question, the next name would be me!

This is the gangster in class. FOREVER BULLYING ME! Hmph.
Also the spotlight in class cos his hair terlampau striking. LALA!

the flash..

They singing love song to him. =/

DAMN GAY! wth.

Hearts.

Dinner @ Marche Movenpick. A super nice place, super nice ambiance, super nice decorations, super nice concept, super nice foods not forgetting SUPER NICE PRICE!
Bye RM50.


Lamb chop!

Roasted chicken!

Mix grill!

Rosti!

2 gangsters 2 innocent girls.

Cute?

Cool?




Throw chewing gum at me wth. TOLD YOU HE FOREVER BULLYING ME!
He always take my sandals away and hide somewhere in class. Damn babi. -__-



Please don't ask me why I smile the same in every picture! I have no answer to that seriously. Signature pose cannot is it! Hmph. I had stomachache that night because both the guys made me laughed NON STOP the whole time! Nobody can beat them in talking craps.

WHY DO ASSIGNMENTS EVEN EXIST IN THIS WORLD!